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When I was 5 years old, I had an operation to remove my tonsils. Unknown to the doctors, I had a very low enzyme level of Cholinesterase. At that time, with the anesthesia that was used, it was very dangerous. It was like a huge overdose because my body could not break down and absorb the anesthesia.
I found myself near the ceiling of the operating room. I watched as a man was pushing up and down on my chest. I saw more people in the room than when I went in. There was it seemed a machine or something behind my head. But I really wasn't interested.
I moved down to watch the man in the mask with the white thing on his head. I was at his side. Looking at his face. White sideburns. I knew his name. Dr. White. I felt his distress. Next, I am again near the ceiling.
I am so overwhelmed with unconditional love. Just no words. Totally, totally loved. At the same time I experienced a oneness. How to describe. Everything...People. plants, animals, stars, rocks, space, just everything in creation is connected. And love is the connection. Wow.
Reading this sounds nuts. Also, I saw an unbelievably bright white light to my left. I thought, “Oh, that must be a window.” Then I went towards it. Next thing, I felt like a rubber band snapped and I was propelled like a missile into my body.
My mother said it was 7 hours before they would say I woke up in recovery and was okay. I remember waking up in recovery and a nurse said, “Sleeping beauty has woken up.” Then, waking up to see my mother and family doctor standing beside my bed.
First thing I said was directed at my doctor. I said, “I died, didn’t I?” I still vividly remember the blood draining from my mother's face. She went white. He turned to her and said, “Sometimes, they know. I don't know how, but sometimes they know.”
I spoke with him years later when I was 16. He told me the doctor that saved my life was named Doctor White. And that the things I described in the room were correct. He said the first time, I had a cardiac and respiratory arrest for 3 and a half minutes. Apparently, there was at least one more, but he didn't go into detail.
Not that long after the experience itself, when I was 5 years old, I remembered more but didn't tell anyone. I understood that no one wanted to hear and that no one would believe me. Especially since it seemed bad to talk about what happened. I just seemed to get hit with it: I walked over a little bridge. Bow shaped. There was a bench. It was so beautiful and peaceful. There was a man in a robe. I felt so loved. We talked for what seemed a long time. I knew Him to be Jesus. (I was brought up in church, so I believe the source is what is comfortable for you.) I wanted to stay. I was told no. You have to go back. Also, your mother needs you. That's when I was zipped? Thrown? Back. I have no memory of the conversation. But I knew that was home.
On the evening of May 8, 2020, I had a medical emergency. I had been trying to quit drinking alcohol. The Topomax made me not want to eat or drink anything. It was about two weeks of withdrawal and limited nutrition just before the NDE.
Read more ...I believe I have experienced two NDEs. The first one was induced by DMT (Bufo experience in Mexico) and the second one was during a car accident in New Jersey. The two experiences happened within 5 months of each other. The first one was at the start of the New Year on January 4th 2024. The second was on May 11th 2024.
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