This summer it was exactly 40 years since I had my experience—of life after physical death. I was four years old, drowning while my father, his woman and my brother were for some reason somewhere else and I was left alone by the pool.

At the edge of the pool, I try to save the life of a small insect. SPLASH—I fall in. I couldn't swim.

I used all my strength and physical energy, my mouth swallowed a lot of water, and I gasped for air and fought with all my energy to save my life. Couldn't scream. Swallowed water in my attempts to take a breath.

I was at the edge of the extreme—where I could do nothing more. No air left. Just PANIC.

Then I hear a voice (throughout me and around me): GE UPP (Swedish for: give up)—as if I heard it only once, but at the same time repeated—in surrender in total Trust.

Then suddenly, everything was clear blue.

I saw the Light. As if it were placed where the sun in the sky would be, it captured my entire attention. The Light was just simply wonderful. Nothing else is to diminish it. Can't find any other word.

Then suddenly in the next moment, I am in the Light and am a part of the light. I am the light and see the light. I don't know how I got there. I was there faster than you can think of the word now.

In the Now in the light, just complete unconditional love in what I experienced, enormous in its infinity and totality. Everything was light.

In short, as most NDErs describe it, impossible to recount.

Suddenly I am gone from there. I don't remember how and what happened next. But I remember how I heard my mother on the phone with her father, “Dad, he died…. Hahahah …but I saved him.” My mother went crazy.

I asked my brother two years ago, who was next to my father and me when it happened, about what he experienced that day. He assures me that dad, who was an old sailor, performed CPR and brought me back to life. I just screamed and cried when I came back into his arms.

My NDE is the most beautiful thing I have ever experienced.