My name is Susan and I'm 65 years old. I have been on disability for many years due to several chronic diseases\illnesses.
This is not a typical NDE. I'm still not sure if it really was an NDE. But it was something that changed my life.
The summer of 2021 my cousin and I went over to my friend's house to help her pack since she was moving out of state. My friend's name is Susan too. We were there for several hours and I realized I hadn't eaten all day. I'm hypoglycemic and need to eat every few hours. I was feeling a bit light headed so I went into the kitchen to see what I could eat. Nothing in the kitchen. I have passed out dozens of times in my life due to low blood sugar levels, not fun and I always feel sick for a few days after. I told Susan I really needed to eat something before I pass out. All we could find was a bag of chips and decided to order some food. I headed back to the living room to sit down. Susan handed me a joint and wouldn't let me pass her until I took a hit.... (It's legal where I live). I am a light weight. I don't partake very often. Susan was relentless...and she wouldn't give up this time. The second I took a hit, I knew I was going to pass out. I dropped to my knees and braced myself for the fall. I felt a "pop" and my body fell to the floor. Funny thing was, I didn't fall with my body. I could feel that I had separated from my body and for a split second I actually saw myself laying on the floor.
The next thing I knew I was in a place that was pitch black. There was a softness to the dark. It was so warm and comfortable. It's very hard to find the words to describe what I was feeling. I thought about how nice it felt to be there. And then all of a sudden, I realized I was aware that I was somewhere and it definitely wasn't Susan's house. As soon as that thought occurred to me, I was instantly taken somewhere else. I'm not sure why I knew I was taken. I feel like there was someone with me.
This next space was filled with people. Hundreds of people. There was no up or down or sideways. Just people in every direction and all around me. I could see everyone at the same time. I didn't have to turn around to look at anyone. I could just see them. I noticed that they were all slightly transparent and all the same size. No one was closer or further away. No one seemed to notice me or each other. I felt like I was there for a while. I don't know how long. I know I communicated with someone. I just have no memory of talking to anyone. I knew that these people were confused. I felt their confusion. I know I was given answers, but I don't remember. I wanted to know why I was there. Again, as soon as I became aware of what I was seeing and thinking, I was somewhere else.
This part is hard to explain, I will do the best I can. I remember being held and holding on to someone or something. I didn't feel or see anything that I can remember. I have no idea what it was. But I know it felt comforting and I wanted to stay there. Then it felt like something grabbed my hips and legs. I was being pulled away. I was terrified to say the least. I reached out with everything I had and tried to hold on for dear life. I could feel the presence of others here too. I was screaming in terror. It felt like I was being ripped apart and at the same time I was being ripped away from something that I didn't want to let go of. Something that was precious. It was so intense and absolutely terrifying. It felt like I was being dragged down to hell. I was so scared and I didn't know what was happening to me. I just knew it was something really bad.
The next thing I knew I was sitting up. I was back in Susan's house looking at my cousin. "Carolyn?" I said. She hugged me and told me I had died. I told her I didn't die, I just passed out. As soon as the words came out of my mouth, I could feel that my throat was sore, so I asked her if I screamed and she said, "Yes, you sat up, reached forward and screamed three times. When I looked into your eyes, you weren't there. You scared us." I remembered being somewhere else. It was a weird feeling. I didn't say anything about my experience. By this time the paramedics had arrived. I told them I was fine. For some reason I knew I was fine...even better than fine. I felt euphoric. I have passed out dozens of times in my life and I always felt drained and confused afterwards. Not this time. I felt full of energy and happy. Not at all confused or disoriented. Everyone insisted that I go to the hospital anyway to get checked out just in case. I protested to no avail. So I finally agreed to go.
When we got to the hospital the paramedics put me in one of the rooms, said someone would be in shortly and they left. I was cold and thirsty. As soon as that thought popped into my head a nurse came into the room with a warm blanket and a cup of ice. She took my hand and smiled. A warm wave went through my body. I told her she was my angel and thanked her. She left the room and a few minutes later all kinds of people showed up. They did the usual poking and prodding and running tests. I was in such a great mood. Joking around with the staff. After an hour or so the doctor came in and said I was in perfect health. She couldn't find anything wrong except I was dehydrated and my blood sugar was low. I told her what my cousin said and asked her if I could have died. She said no, I just had a bad case of the spins.
I asked about the nurse that I first encountered, but no one knew who I was talking about. They left me alone to finish my bag of saline water. A little while later the doctor came back to sign my release papers and technicians were removing equipment when that nurse came back into the room. I was so excited to see her. I was just sitting there wondering if I was going to see her before I left. I asked her if she knew she was an angel. She said she wasn't an angel, she was just a nurse. But there was something about her. A softness around her. Almost a glow. There were still several people in the room, but no one seemed to noticed or pay attention to the conversation I was having with this nurse. It was odd.
Before I left, the doctor and a few of the staff told me I was the happiest patient they had ever seen and wanted whatever it was that I had been smoking. We all had a good laugh.
A couple of months later I had my yearly physical. I found out that my Hashimoto’s, an autoimmune disease, had gone into remission. My doctor said she had heard of it happening, but had never known anyone that reversed an autoimmune disease.
I also started having dreams about the day I passed out. With every dream I remembered more and more details about my experience. I also remember three past lives now. That's another story.
I started doing some research on out of body experiences since I knew I separated from my body that day. It wasn't like anyone's experience. But I kept researching anyway. A few days later I happened to stumble upon a video about near-death experiences. I was hooked. I probably watched them for 3 or 4 weeks before it dawned on me that it was probably an NDE. I didn't even know about NDEs at the time. I didn't go through a tunnel, see a light, or talk to Jesus. But I do know I wasn't given a choice. It was very clear that I had to go back to my body and I was not happy about that at the time.
I am a different person now. I look at life differently. I feel connected to everything and everyone I meet. I've randomly hugged strangers and told them I love them. I now know there is God and there is somewhere that we go after we die.
I pray and thank our creator almost every day for all the blessings in my life. Which is weird for me. I've been an atheist\agnostic all my life. I still don't believe in religions, but I feel very spiritual now. A connection I've never felt before. I didn't tell anyone about my experience for almost a year. I didn't know how to explain what I went through. I get very emotional when I talk about it. But I have told a few people about my experience recently. All of them said it was something they needed to hear. We shared tears and hugs.
I just know that I went somewhere and now I can't wait to find out what is going to happen next! Pretty exciting stuff! After many years of depression and tons of health issues, I am starting to enjoy my life and my health is getting better with each day. I no longer fear my death.